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Mar. 13th, 2014 | 10:24 pm

I know logically that I had a day off of work last Saturday but it was filled with errands. Working 6-7 days a week is starting to take its toll and delirium is starting to set in. This hinders my mental capacities and if I remember, hah, I'll try to remember to take my vitamins including ginkgo and hopefully it will help some. It is also giving me physical exhaustion so my hands are starting to randomly drop things, fumbling and the like, leaning and bumping into walls/tables like I'm drunk. Am having constipation, irregular facial twitches and an overall lower immune system with the obvious loss of energy and feelings of tiredness.

The good news is that the exhaustion is letting my mind wander and once I can tell all the utter bullshit/depression to go away, actual progress seems to be made. Random flickers of shadow and light, color and scents, feelings of whispering breath on my flesh.

I just need to remember that my role is to be 'on' all the time and this is just something I'm going to have to get used to since I have zero possibility for me/purely alone time now... God I've GOT to get her a job asap for my and her own sanity regardless of financial woes. Her being awake while I'm sleeping is fucking with my sleeping schedule because if she's awake then I should be awake to serve and this is really not good.. I've never had problems sleeping...not good at all...

But oh the visions, the tears, the attempts at meditation that fade into rest and sleep oh too quickly. Maybe one day...

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Car Woes

Nov. 12th, 2013 | 10:02 pm

My truck has been dead for about a year at this point and the roommate's car about 2 months. Because I am behind on rent and other bills, as usual, I could not afford to fix them so in the carport they sat and got dusty. Having to walk to work and rely on friends and chosen family to bring me to and from work sucked balls. They are awesome people and I am truly thankful but I REALLY hate asking for aid of any sort. That being said, my mother decided she was going to call my grandparents and ask them for me to get a bike for Christmas. Yes I was willing to take the bike and yes I was going to attempt to build up to the point that I could ride from College drive to Oneal lane, over 10 miles and I think I could have done it. Well grandmother would have nothing about that so he began plotting to get me a car, woohoo! I would pay him back for it, something like 20 bucks a month until forever, no big deal.

Aaand then my parents got into it... without contacting or conversing with me THEY decided that they would get the new car that gramps bought for me and I would get mom's car. Their reasoning was that I was used to her car, familiar with it. It's a 2001 with 141000 miles on it, the new is 2004 with 142000 miles on it, no big deal right? They said that they would pick up the note and pay for it and that they wanted the new car. I stupidly agreed because to be honest I had no idea what the new car was like, what year, make and model and what accidents it might have gotten into and all of that. She didn't even tell me this information until I asked once, no twice, no three times.

Me and mother take care of the title transfer on Saturday, we paid the fee half and half, had lunch dutch and she went on her way and I went home. The next day I awoke to a flat tire, filled it with air, no problem, did my errands and went home. Monday same deal, flat tire, filled it up, got the roommate off to work and immediately went to go get it patched. Well they couldn't patch it because it had been patched already FOUR times, at this point I'm a wee bit pissed at my father who patched it and failed, he didn't tell me that he had patched it THREE times. Of course I couldn't afford a new tire so I had them put on my spare and went home...to list my truck on Craigslist.

I took a power nap, I was pissy and upset and wanted to strangle people so I needed 'a moment'. I woke up a few hours later and was supposed to go to a friends house to clean it for cash/do my laundry but I got a phone call for someone to see the truck, heck yes come over! I got another phone call and an email and within three hours of me posting the truck I had cash in hand! Woohoo! Was it what I wanted no, was it a good deal for the both of us in the long run, yes so I'm not upset.

With this cash in hand I went to the bank and deposited it then hauled my ass back to the tire place and immediately purchased a tire and waited, and waited and waited. Finished my errands and went home to chillax. In between that time I had to meet my mother to give her back the license plate that she forgot to get from the car, she was too chicken shit to drive into town so I had to meet her on the outskirts, yay wasting gas!

Today happened without issues, got to work, got home, all good...then I got the phone call from the grandfather. He was also 'informed' that the new car was going to be the parents' car without any conversation or anything. Long story short I found out that he pays like 90% of my parent's bills and that they owe him so much money it is ridiculous. I will be paying him back for the car that my parents took from me, it is only right to him because they can't pay and it would be essentially him paying himself which is dumb.

I will be going to my grandparents home sometime in the next few weeks, chit chatting and plotting with them and then I will go to the parent's house and start selling off shit. The money will go to the grandparents, I will take a 10% fee for doing all the internet/listing work and it will be a win/win. Less clutter, less shit for them to look at and have to clean and more money back into the pockets of those who need it most. AND I want to get them into a home, to sell the house and whatnot. Dad is legally blind in one eye and yet he still drives!!! and mom's ailments are ridiculous. They need care.

I REALLLLLLY dislike bio family...

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Feb. 19th, 2013 | 06:51 pm

It was exhausting, I survived it, that is all...and yes I'm still recovering

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Webpage help

Sep. 9th, 2010 | 10:00 pm

I am looking for a web page host and designer for a basic commercial site, someone reliable and reasonably priced. Ideas?

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Por Favor

Aug. 5th, 2010 | 09:54 pm
Current personality: workingworking

I need help cleaning this Sunday or Monday. Compensation will be provided as will lunch (I'll cook something) and cleaning supplies. Please contact me if you are interested in helping me at 985 634 0912 via texts. be aware that this will include cleaning of toilets, bird cages, etc and some heavy lifting (I want to rearrange the living room)

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computer help please

Jun. 21st, 2010 | 02:09 pm

I took a movie clip on a camera, the quality sucks and all of that but all I am trying to do is make the video rightside up. Windows movie maker doesn't work because it is a .mov file. Anyone have a program that can make it rightside up and/or willing to do, what I assume is a really simple edit, on this file?

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Dallas Flooding

Jun. 10th, 2010 | 04:16 pm

Is everyone out there okay? Anyone know?

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May. 25th, 2010 | 06:09 am
Current personality: melancholymelancholy

So I've been selling my Old Whitewolf RPG books on half.com with someone buying one at a time every now and again. I figured since I haven't read most of them, some of them still being in their original shrink wrap, in nearly ten plus year that I should go ahead and part with them. My online games are gone, there is nothing left but the wannabe maybe sometimes you can get someone coherent sex game and there is no one local that wants to do the old system. The new system is crap and I can't go spending hundreds of dollars collecting a new system when the old system was full of beauty and intelligence instead of simple hack and slash crap without story.

So I sold another one today, flipped through it and was saddened. This was one of the books that I had not even opened in the years that I've had it and it is a shame that I never read it, it is a really good book.


My only good thoughts are that someone else will get the thrill that I used to and still crave and that I at least am making back more money than I put in which helps the growing amount of bills.

I miss my rpgs...but not the idiots.

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Pink Squirmie Thingz!!!

Jan. 24th, 2010 | 04:02 pm
Current personality: giddygiddy

OMG!!!! I'm a grandparent!!! We have at least two babies atm, can't really see inside the nest too much and I do not want to disturb the mother too badly. I took some pictures but they did not really come out that well but here is a link to show what they look like atm.


once they get bigger or I kick my camera into working better I'll post some up. But right now they are pink and blind and adorable!!!

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Old WoD/M:tG

Jan. 23rd, 2010 | 03:02 pm

for those who are interested, I am finally selling off my collection of old world of darkness books and magic the gathering cards. I desperately need the money and its an old tether that needs to be burned before I can move on in this time of my life. The books are on half.com and of course if you find the seller shortave that's me, of course I'll refund shipping if you end up buying it. The magic cards are going on craigslist once I get an actual count on how many I have and how many in each edition, those will be going for 1500 obo since I have several thousands of them along with boxes from fatpacks, lifecounters, multiple deck protecters and some books and inserts. Any questions email me at alvonina@yahoo.com Only took me 12 years to finally get rid of them.

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